I hesitate with every small little thing, and I'm unreliable and hopeless. Wishing to be able like I used to, and call you right away, laughing. I can hear the steps of happiness coming close, bringing pain along with it. Illusions i see, closing my eyes the one thing I remember is you, and it's because I want to live with you by my side. I don't mind if you hesitate, just don't let go of my hand.